I’m at such a low place right now. I think the only reason I haven’t killed myself recently is because I’m actually excited about school this year. I never really matter to anyone and I mean even less to myself. I wish I could be happy and I wish I could be whole and I wish I could be okay but it’s just never going to happen.
You are being dumb, you do matter. I understand how you are, I’ve been there myself. I know what it’s like for nothing to go right and feel like shit when it doesn’t. It’s like no matter what you do it always fails and you keep on blaming yourself for everything that goes wrong. Trust me I’m the exact same way, even now. I have my good days and then really bad ones. I’ve told you before I don’t give a damn what it is you can talk to me. It actually makes me feel bad that your not doing ok. I do not pity you, it’s just I know how you feel.
Planning on staying up all night if possible